Yeah, okay... I'm a wreck.

I'm an emotional wreck. One minute I'm all happy and life is good, the next I'm crying my eyes out. Love these fucking hormones.

This past Saturday, Deb, our live-in SIL, acted like an ass. It's not even worth going into shy of the outcome being that she made me more furious at her than I thought possible. Then she topped it! Monday morning, she called R* while I was dropping Tide off at daycare, to ask him if it was okay for her to have a couple of her friends over Tuesday night. Asking for permission to have friends at her OWN fucking houseboat? She was in Tampa at her boyfriend's house, I know she only called to prove to him how nasty and mean we are to her. It made/makes me furious.

*Everyone waits to call when they think I'm gone so they can catch R. After all, he's the nice guy, and I'm not. It irritates me, since they know they'll get away with something I would normally shut down. Not in this particular case, I would have been as shocked as R was, but I could have expressed myself and my feelings if I had answered.

R went over late (past midnight) last night to ask Deb to leave this coming Saturday night so we could have one evening alone on our river side. Our anniversary is Sunday as well as Mother's Day, we wanted to do something special, but need our space. Needless to say, he didn't get back until 5:30am. (yes, he was drinking too). Apparently he hit on more of our irritating topics with her. All of which I think is for nothing. Well, not really since she is going to leave us alone for Saturday night. But as far as any of his discussion meaning any changes in the way she is living or dealing with us... I don't think so.

When he asked what she was doing when she called about having her friends over, she claims she was just being nice. (this is bullshit, she had even invited me (on Saturday) to join her and her friends and go to a bar Tuesday night, and had said she'd probably have all her friends crash on her boat.) Besides, she has had a lot of people to her boat in the past without ever mentioning it to us, why start now?

I'm so frustrated. She just called to explain how she will leave Saturday night and be back Sunday afternoon for a Mother's Day dinner with R's Mother and she hoped we would join them. Thanks for the info, but that is what her and R had agreed to last night. I'm just not in the mood to put up with her and her ways. She acts sappy sweet nice to get her way through life. I don't believe a word of it after watching her manipulate us and people around us for the last 11 months! I told R when he just came in, that she had called, and that I was not dealing with her very well. That I'm still angry with her and will try to ignore it so we can move on. He started to get mad, saying what good did him going over there do if I was still angry?! Great. So, I really need to either tell her off or just let it go.

See, I almost called her a couple of days ago to tell her just what I thought of the way she handled things, but I was afraid I'd go too far. From the beginning, I've known that regardless of being the nice guys in all this we will end up the bad guys in the end, and all the giving we've done will be long forgotten. I just am not ready to wear that noose, and telling her off would sling it around our necks.

I know this is all convoluted and seemingly childish, sadly it's been burning a hole in my brain all week. Thank you for listening if anyone made it this far.